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Im self destructive
I put another hole in my ear
I cut off all my hair
And dyed it
I started smoking weed again
I got a new boyfriend
And I fucked the hell out him
I put a hole in my nose
I slit my writs again
And as I watch the blood poor
I think to myself
Im self destructive
Why doesnt anyone love me?
I listen to ICP
I like to party way to much
But I still dont give a fuck
Because
Im self destructive
I think I drive better when Im high
Im bossy
Ive lost a lot of weight
And I started lying again
I just lost my baby
But no seems to care
I didnt tell everyone just yet
But
Im self destructive
No one cares
And no one ever will
So will just see what happens
But remember
Im self destructive

A million things run through your mind when you get the call to show up in court. I didnt do anything but then again maybe I did I just dont know about it yet. I shouldnt of hit that girl huh, or took that shirt. I hope they dont want to drug test me, thatll be bad. You know the first time I went to jail was when I was 11 and I was too young to even go to the juvey, but they sent me anyways. I guess they really dont care when you still a car out of Wal-Mart parking lot. Maybe I just wont go. But last time I did that they found me. This is been going on for way to long. Maybe Im just always in the wrong place at the wrong time. I dont know any more. I wish I would just disappear, make everything go away. Fuck these people are stupid they wont leave me alone. I really hate foster care, but I get free clothes. Ha ha this isnt cool any more, it just all fucking sucks. Maybe one day Ill do something that will make me famous. Okay its not funny anymore, but then again no I better not say it. I really hope they dont want to drug test me it hasnt been 30 days yet only 2 come on this cant be, fuck they suck. I hate cops, and judges, and the fucking government and anything else I left out. Just fuck it
s.o.v.s. ann newcomb

Our Past

Just kill me now
Make it fast
I dont want it to last
Dont ask me why
For you should know
Since you are the cause

I know in the past
I was kind of harsh
But you know people can change
Just like the ice in your glass
I know I still sleep in class
But I swear I can explain
And its not because of the beer glass
This is who I am
I wish I could change our past
But thats another pain in the ass
I wish I could sit in first class
And sip beer out of a pretty glass
I know I can be a smart ass
And if you dont like it
Thats your loss
If youre ever harassed
Just come to me
And I can put them in a body caste
For our past doesnt matter anymore
Our past is like a book, the words on the page stay the same no matter how hard you look

to janiet from ann sorry

DearAnyone, 5/4/06 6:55pm

The grass is green and the sky is blue. I love your grin and guess who I am? Im the shadow that follows in your foot steps. You never really see me. But yes, I am really here. I know you havent forgotten me. And yes I still remember who you are. I remember everything youve ever done to me and everything I have ever done to you. Yes, I forgive you, no it wasnt my fault. It was you, all you.

Sincerely, Ann Newcomb

in thought of my father

You Were Always There
Whenever I needed someone to talk to,
You were always there,
My eyes filled with tears and my heart filled with pain,
And you were always there,
There was no time when I had a doubt to come to you because you were always there.
I could see in your eyes that you wanted to help and that you really cared. Whenever I was down and blue, you were always there. No matter what my problems were or what was wrong, you were always there.
But now your gone and I dont know what to do, so I close my eyes and think of you and how you were always there.
Can you hear me now? At night I pray and I speak to you. I guess you were right when you said no matter how far away you were, you would always be there. Even though it hurts to look at the pictures and great memories of you, one thing I will always say is that you were always there.
by my best friend Christie Tungate in memory of her cuz that got killed in a car crash